Well, I haven’t been on here much the past few days and with good reason. Kayla started with a cold on Friday and it’s trickled down through the rest of us since then. Thankfully its only colds, but they can really knock you out. Hopefully DH, Kayla and I are on the mend, but Alysa is just beginning. And not only have I had trouble sleeping because I’m sick, but last night I banished DH to the air mattress because we have been keeping each other up. But mostly, Kayla has not been letting me sleep. Sunday night, Kayla was up from 10:30 to almost midnight. She woke up crying from congestion and had trouble from there. The second time she was up crying, I brought her in bed with us. Keep in mind that DH had convinced me to take Nyquil b/c he was home to take care of the kids. Now, he’s great and will do it, but let’s face it, when a child is sick, they only want Mommy. So there I was exhausted, congested and groggy from the medicine. So the second time she cried I dragged her in bed with us. I was hoping beyond hope that she would just go to sleep so I could try to sleep. Well, before she settled down, she had to tell me she had to pee –but even I’m not going to take her to the potty at 11 at night. Not that she would have sat on it anyway (her thing now is to tell me she has to “pee pee potty”, but then refuse to sit on it. So I changed her diaper and then we got in bed together. And she did get comfy with me for a while. I actually started to doze off. And actually, that was the best thing I could have done (bring her in our room), b/c about 11:45 or so, she turned to me and said “Go Kayla’s Room?” “All done Mommy’s room”. So she then went back to sleep for the rest of the night.

Monday night was better, she was only up briefly at 11pm. But last night was bad again, she was up from 2-3am. I can’t even say why, as she wasn’t congested. Getting used to the extra attention I guess. I went in, comforted her and put her back down. About 20 minutes later, she got upset again and was calling for me. I went in to tell her that I wasn’t coming in again after this. Well, as soon as I walked in she said to me – “I go pee pee. Mommy change you?”. Why, oh why must she feel the need to be so in tune with her diaper in the wee (pun intended) hours of the morning? So I changed her and she went back to sleep. But of course, Alysa was up crying for 30 second intervals at 4am and 4:45am. I didn’t have to go in, but it was enough to destroy any additional sleep I might have been able to get.

So it’s been rough. And today was a long work day. Although, the “selfish” part of me has to admit, it’s nice to NOT have to chase after 2 cranky children today, but I still miss them terribly. And I’d rather be home. And Kayla usually is great the days I work and happily waves ‘bye bye’ to me. Well, today, it was all me. She was clinging to my legs screaming “MOMMMMMYYYYYYYY”. DH told me she cried hysterically for 5 minutes after I left and then went on a hunger strike. She had been begging for breakfast b4 I left, but after she refused food and drink. It broke my heart leaving this morning and now all I want is to go home and hug them both!

I just keep hoping that tonight I can get some sleep.